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Thursday, August 10, 2006

title:{run by snow patrol}

*this is my song for now. hehe =P
it's on repeat on my winamp.
it's my song for "you know who you are". :-)





Run by Snowpatrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it any where
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think i might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if its just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

title:{guys=headache. hehe!}

I chatted with a friend today.

he gave me a push.

ok, ok, it wasn't really the push i needed, it was more like a little nudge.

but it was something that put some sense into me.

i havent been single for 4 years! and even before that I always had someone to text or chat with. Even if I was alone back then I was never lonely.

and now...wala talaga. so this is the 1st time that i was actually single. haha!

this friend i chatted with made me realize that being single is fun!
and guys = headache! haha!
and that i should go out with my girlfriends!;-) and have fun!

and.. i might just do that! ;-)

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

title:{bored to death and lonely as hell}

I haven't been updating this blog for awhile. so here it goes..

I just ended a 4-year relationship with Jave a few days ago.

Why??

I'd rather not elaborate on that here, lets just say that things aren't meant for us to be "us". We're opposites kasi, and at first it was exciting, but as years passed I realized being happy is being with someone who shares the same views and dreams and goals as you, or at least close to urs.

He is my bestfriend. He's the person I trust the most. He knows me and I know him. He's part of my family na.
So it's hard to move on, even if I was the one who ended it.
He's a big part of me. :'(
And now... I'm empty.. and STUCK.

He was all I had. and now wala na.
I don't know where to start.
I don't know how to begin living again.
Or maybe I know where and how but I just need a push.
Punyeta.
I've never felt this stuck and empty ever.

Last year when we moved here in our house in delarama, i was lonely too. we broke up for months nun. and now here I am again.
I hate this house!
Good thing we're gonna move again.. sa October ata.
I can't wait to move!
punyetang bahay to!
There's something about this house that brings a negative vibe.
oh well. in a few months we're moving na naman eh.
I just hope when we move na I'll leave all my depression here in this house.

haaay, I know things will be better someday.
I just need to find work. and try my best to move on.

N {MY PROFILE}

: Name: chuchay; Location: the shire, Philippines

some fun/weird facts about me:
1.) I think i'm an Obssessive Compulsive person, or close to being one (but my room/stuff shows otherwise).
2.) I'm becoming claustrophobic (i think). coz i can't breathe when the MRT passes thru a tunnel
3.) I often sing "Love Me For A Reason" in the shower, i dunno why.
4.) For me, waking up at 11am is too early.
5.) And i only sleep before 3am when m not feeling well.
6.) I can't straight a glass of water or any kind of drink. Sip lang.
7.) So i can't down any tablets or capsules, except maybe those super tiny ones.
8.) I don't know how to ride the bike, lalo na to drive a car (but i would love to learn)
9.) I always wish i could teleport!
10.) I was addicted to coke (the drink ah), but now di na mashado.
11.) I imagine dirt floating in water when i drink it, thats why i prefer drinking juice instead
12.) I don't eat lechon, and i hate Mang Tomas.
13.) I hate suka!(the sawsawan).
14.) I'm allergic to chocolates! (not really allergic, but my throat itches sobra)
15.) When i was a kid, i used to make papak salt! yep, weird!
16.) I save the best for last

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