Somewhere over the rainbow

run by snow patrol

2006-08-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

*this is my song for now. hehe =P
it's on repeat on my winamp.
it's my song for "you know who you are". :-)





Run by Snowpatrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it any where
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think i might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart, my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if its just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

guys=headache. hehe!

2006-08-09T14:50:00.000+08:00

I chatted with a friend today.

he gave me a push.

ok, ok, it wasn't really the push i needed, it was more like a little nudge.

but it was something that put some sense into me.

i havent been single for 4 years! and even before that I always had someone to text or chat with. Even if I was alone back then I was never lonely.

and now...wala talaga. so this is the 1st time that i was actually single. haha!

this friend i chatted with made me realize that being single is fun!
and guys = headache! haha!
and that i should go out with my girlfriends!;-) and have fun!

and.. i might just do that! ;-)

bored to death and lonely as hell

2006-08-08T14:56:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating this blog for awhile. so here it goes..

I just ended a 4-year relationship with Jave a few days ago.

Why??

I'd rather not elaborate on that here, lets just say that things aren't meant for us to be "us". We're opposites kasi, and at first it was exciting, but as years passed I realized being happy is being with someone who shares the same views and dreams and goals as you, or at least close to urs.

He is my bestfriend. He's the person I trust the most. He knows me and I know him. He's part of my family na.
So it's hard to move on, even if I was the one who ended it.
He's a big part of me. :'(
And now... I'm empty.. and STUCK.

He was all I had. and now wala na.
I don't know where to start.
I don't know how to begin living again.
Or maybe I know where and how but I just need a push.
Punyeta.
I've never felt this stuck and empty ever.

Last year when we moved here in our house in delarama, i was lonely too. we broke up for months nun. and now here I am again.
I hate this house!
Good thing we're gonna move again.. sa October ata.
I can't wait to move!
punyetang bahay to!
There's something about this house that brings a negative vibe.
oh well. in a few months we're moving na naman eh.
I just hope when we move na I'll leave all my depression here in this house.

haaay, I know things will be better someday.
I just need to find work. and try my best to move on.

I failed.

2006-06-19T04:23:00.000+08:00

I failed in my non-drinking this month rule.
With a Zombie, a shot of Jagermeister and 2 10-peso beers! ;-)

Good thing I didn't get drunk. ;-)

I will never drink again.

2006-06-10T03:10:00.000+08:00

~~I will never drink again.~~

well.. hindi naman never na talaga.
maybe just for a month or so.

don't feel like making kwento why. haha!
basta it has something to do with this:

snapshots.

2006-05-31T01:08:00.000+08:00

i was bored.

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

2006-05-25T02:45:00.000+08:00

Somewhere Over The Rainbow..

I remember my Lola (my Dad's mom) with this song.

She wrote down the lyrics and asked me to learn the song.

I miss her. :(

I got all teary-eyed kanina when Katherine McPhee (My favorite American Idol contestant) sang this on stage.
awww... :'(

zerocash + boredom=myspace

2006-05-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

What do you do when you're bored and you don't have any money to leave your house?

Me?-- I edit my Myspace! lol!

I should get a life..
or at least get a job! bwahahahaha!

click here for my myspace

My Bora and Iloilo Trip.

2006-05-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

May 3-10 2006.
With Jave, SonnyBoy, Pao, Mike, Vanessa, Tita Del and Tito Ding.

Tito Ding, Tita Del, Vanessa, Me, Sonny, Pao and Mike

SonnyBoy, Me and Jave

I don't know if I could make kwento 5 fun filled days into one blog post, but here it goes...

We didn't ride a plane straight to Caticlan or Kalibo, but to Iloilo.
Why? Well...
FIRST, coz the plane ticket was way cheaper.
SECOND, coz Jave and his family are chance passengers so there's a better chance for them to ride the plane there than in Kalibo.
and LAST, coz Iloilo is Jave's province, so we visited his relatives there too.

sunrise from the plane

Anyway, When we arrived Iloilo, we visited Jave's relatives for awhile then headed to Caticlan. Jave's Tito drove us to Caticlan! And it was a 6-hour ride!

We stayed in El Centro.
It's in Station 2. Near Regency.
The place was nice naman.

I actually forgot what we did first and what we did on each day.
There was no dull moment. Every minute, we were doing something.

We rode the Banana boat.
We even made it pataob!
And I hit my head on Jave's chest. Ouch!

We went Island Hopping!
Funny coz the locals pronounce it as "Aylan Hoping" Haha!
They even said "Sir, Aylan Hoping tayo bukas!" to Jave one time! haha!
We went Snorkeling, Went to Puka Island and Crystal Cave ba yun?

We drank in Cocomangas, Pier1 (twice), and Jony's, oh and almost in Hey Jude but we were too sleepy na coz we wake up early almost everymorning for the complimentary breakfast.

In Cocomangas, We drank the Illusion shaker. Sarap!
We drank 3 or 4 Shakers. I forgot! Haha!
oh and I bought one shaker that we used. (para may remembrance) Haha!
Jave and I danced pa! Oha! kaso parang puro Jologs yung sumasayaw that night eh. Hehe.

We danced with the jologs! Haha sama!

The illusion shaker.

In Pier1, The first time we drank there, we only had a beer or two.
We weren't feeling well kasi.
The second time was with Jade, Her Sister, Her cousin, Carlo and His friends.
It was fun. There were two guys dancing pa! Brokeback style! lol!
We were supposed to continue drinking in Hey Jude, but when we got there, inantok na kami. So nanuna na kami.

In Jony's naman, Jave and I had this "date". Haha!
Kasi kaming lang dalawa nun. And we drank sa may shore.
We ordered the bucket ng beer and chilli mushrooms! :)

Soky was in Bora din pala. We saw each other in Hey Jude and in Jonah's.

Jonah's Shakes--The best talaga!
Mango Milkshake the best! :P
I also tried the Choco-Banana-Vanilla Shake.
Sana may Jonah's dito sa bf. hehe:)

My Choco-Banana-Vanilla Shake

I think nagkaron ako fever when I was in Bora so I kept on drinking my medicine.
Grabe, our cottage was like a sick ward!
Everyone was sick!
Pero nothing can stop me from enjoying Boracay. :P

Ang dami pang nangyari..pero I won't make kwento na, haba na eh.

Anyway, balik na naman kami Iloilo. So 6 hours na Van ride ulit from Caticlan to Iloilo.
We went straight to the hotel pag dating sa Iloilo, pagod eh.
the next day, We went to Robinsons lang and visited Jave's relatives na naman.
Oh and punta pala kami always sa internet shop sa tabi ng hotel. Haha!
Me - to check my blog.
Jave, SB and the others - play DOTA! Hahaha!

Ayun. That was my Bora/Iloilo trip. :D

I had to leave my paradise :(

2006-05-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

I am now in Iloilo.
Aww..
No more Bora.

We stayed there for like 5 days and parang super bilis!
super bitin.

Now, I'm feeling sick pa. I think I have a fever.
Buti na lang I brought my medicine :)

More kwentos and pics when I get back to Manila. :)

hours to go til our flight to bora.

2006-05-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

Well, mga 30 hours pa or something close to that.

sige na, make me asar na I'm excited and call me a loser..
coz..
It's my very first time to go to Bora. Hahaha!

Well, you gotta give me credit coz I haven't packed yet.
and that means I'm not TOO excited! haha!

We have to be in the airport 3 hours before the flight and our flight is at 5am!
so we have to be there like 2 or 3am?!
haha! woah! super early!
Tapos I usually sleep around 4 or 5am na!
Feeling ko I'll be super wasted during the trip! Haha!

We'll be back sa May9 or 10 :)
but we'll drop by Iloilo muna before we head back to Manila :)

Watch out for more beach pics when we get back :-D

transsportshow2006

2006-04-29T11:31:00.000+08:00

click here for more pics

the nightmares are back :(

2006-04-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: butterfly kisses- Bob Carlisle

I've been having nightmares lately.
Although the nightmares I had were not major naman.
But last night was.
It's too personal to make kwento in this blog, but it has something to do with my dad.
Lets just say when I woke up this afternoon, I was crying real tears.
When I heard my dad's song for me on my media player, I cried.

It's not that I'm too emotional.
It's just that I haven't been spending time with my dad.
And my dream last night made me want to go to Baras (this place in Rizal that's 3 hrs from here) as in right now and just hug him.

Well, too bad I can't do that.
Why? well..
1st, I dont know how to drive.
2nd, even if I knew how to drive, I don't have a car.
3rd, I don't know how to commute going there.
4th, even if I knew how to commute going there, I don't have money.
and last, it's too damn far!

Times like these I wish my dad lives here in bfhomes too :(

learning to love suka!

2006-04-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

i used to hate vinegar! as in, seeing it makes me want to puke. ganun ka-hate.

but now, I'm learning to love it.

I actually kinda like it now. Although I prefer toyo with suka and sili better pa rin :)

cambodian orphans

2006-04-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

i saw this pic in my cousin Marisse's friendster with the caption:

"Cambodian orphans, please donate to the 'love marisse' fund."

Haha! Laughtrip!
My brother was uber thin back then!
I know I was too. (wonder where I was when this pic was taken, probably at school, sayang coz 3 sana kaming cambodian orphans! haha!)
But now, My brother and I are far from being uber thin! hahahaha!

sony ericsson t68

2006-04-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

This is what I'm using now.

Back to my first colored phone! haha!

we stayed home on the 18th.

2006-04-18T23:08:00.000+08:00

it was our monthsary, and we were broke! haha!
so we watched a dvd na lang at home and nagpictrip :-P

we have to get jobs na for us to date out again. lol!

but tripping at home on our monthsary wasn't bad.
It was actually fun :-D

here are the pics:

love this ♥♥♥ (vain much?)

solarized us.

kulet faces.

hahaha pa-cute! :P

holyweek2006 (batangas)

2006-04-18T13:35:00.000+08:00

had fun!
I thought I would be alone this holyweek.
but bea and aisa came! nice!:)
this holyweek outing was probably one of the best..or maybe not (but close to being the best)
oh.. except that nasira cellphone ko. haha!

strong ice 200pesos per case FTW!

chillax sa balsa

aisa, me and beatot :)

steady lang kami sa balsa

si ico naaliw. aisa caught a fish, a hipon,
a starfish, a jellyfish, and 2 crabs for him kasi.

my sunkist.

for more pics. click here

Be back in a week.

2006-04-11T03:25:00.000+08:00

with beach kwentos and pictures :-D

graduation.

2006-04-06T13:08:00.000+08:00

[edited one time at 04/08/06 2:41pm]
I'm so tamad to upload pics here.
just click on the link for the pics
Graduation Pics

I am now officially a graduate! :-D

well, I dont know if i should be sad or happy. hehe
coz there will be no more allowances and I have to work! haha!

Yesterday was my graduation.
I was almost late for it! Hahaha!
Dra. Tan's speech was damn long.
I forgot to bow after getting my diploma (rather the lalagyan of my diploma, coz we'll be getting our diplomas after we bookbind our thesis).
They didn't include what I said about Luigi in my video speech.
We left the grad immediately after it ended.
Lolo and lola has waited for more than an hour for us in Minggoys.
They (lolo, papa, tito bob) drank too much wine.
I hated the white wine.
I loved the salpicao and the paella.
Alliana hated the chicken.
Luigi wanted to bring home a souvenir (Menu) from Minggoys but the Manager didnt allow him.
Papa had fun. Haha!
Khali had a celebration in Bellevue.
There was a "Congratulations Lloyd!!!" streamer.
We dropped by.
Had red wine.
And watched/heard khali's cousin sing. (Magic-sing style).
Then we dropped by Tin's party.
Ayen, Trish, Fatima were there too, and some of Tin's friends.
Ayen's Tequila Rose was the best.
Jagermeister was the bomb as well.
Mind games from Tin's friends. Haha! Astig!
Jave- sikat daw?! commercial model? Haha!
Had fun! :-D
But had to wake up early the next day to go to school... again!
And I thought it was all over. Ha!

one day to go...

2006-04-04T14:38:00.000+08:00

:-D

Dreams Haunt Me.

2006-04-02T16:32:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: scared
Current Music: Dave Matthews- Stay or leave

I dreamt last night that my yorkie the chad drowned.
I couldnt stop crying while holding him in my arms (in my dream).

The other night, I dreamt that Jave left me for another girl, a really close friend even. I couldn't stop crying in that dream too.

You know how dreams seems so real? And crying in sleep seems you're crying real tears.. And the pain you feel seems so fucking real.

My dreams scared me.

I love my Jave.
I love my Chad.

And I'm scared of losing them both :'-(

Today's my Rest Day.

2006-03-30T17:33:00.000+08:00

I've been busy the whole week.
Yesterday I was in school from 10am til 7pm!
And I had a fever the night before.

but today....

It's my Rest Day!

I didn't even leave home.

Woke up at 1:30pm
Ate Lunch.
Checked everything online.
And watched the OC.

I deserve some rest.
Besides I can't work on my thesis coz tito Bob has the laptop and I don't have Microsoft Office installed here in my PC.
I'l work on it tonight siguro.
Coz there are some revisions pa, and I have to pass it tomorrow morning.

I'm off to watch the OC again! haha!
ciao! for now.. :-)

Closed for Inventory.

2006-03-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

Went to San Beda Alabang this morning to research in their library.
"Closed for Inventory".

Hassle!

Called up Perpetual.
and.."Closed for Inventory" din daw sila.

Next week pa matatapos.

So I'm left with no choice but to try and find a thesis on the Internet..
and a Theory related to my study as well.

I've been searching for it last night pa, wala ako makita.
And i have to pass my thesis tomorrow morning na.

Sorry for my rantings. (again).
I'm just worried about my thesis.
and I'm having a really bad day.

Last minute revisions.

2006-03-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

I'm sleepy na!
Super bigat na ng eyes ko!
Of all the nights naman.. why tonight pa? haha!
I have to pass my thesis tomorrow.
And I'm still not done... far from done actually!

I hope Bene (as in the school ah) allows me to research in their library tomorrow morning.
I need a thesis related to my study.
I can't find it in Southville, coz kami nga yung 1st batch to graduate-meaning 1st college to have thesis.
Hassle kasi, I thought ok na yung Thesis, but then last minute my Prof told me that I need to add more local thesis related to my study. Tsk.
Plus I need to find theories related also to my study. Mali na daw yung before coz of the revisions I made. Hassle.

Hay.. Oh well.

I thought I was done na.

a week and a few days to go before my Grad.
I HOPE I'LL BE ABLE TO GRADUATE! hahahahaha! :-)

My graduation dinner is all planned out na nga eh! haha
We'll be eating at Mingoys in ATC. :-)
Spanish..Yum! :-P
Can't wait na..
I know what I'll be ordering na nga eh.
Salpicao and Paella- the best! ;-)

Need to get this thesis done muna.
Ciao! ;-) --for now.

My OJT's done!

2006-03-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

me, eva and jaja at Hinge Inquirer.

Jaja and me.

I'm done with my OJT. yey! =)
thesis na lang then I'm really done with school. haha!

I had my internship at Summit (Cosmo-Editorial) and Hinge (Tech Editorial). Long story kung bakit dalawa haha.

I had fun in both companies.
both were really different though.
kala ko nga same lang. but no. =)
I was asked to do different things.
Which is good :-)

I'm glad that my internship is over.
No more waking up early, walking from Mile Long to Landmark and commuting even when it's raining. (for now, til i become employed! haha).
But I'm kinda sad din.
I had to leave Hinge na.. (haha! sipsip!)
pero seryoso, coz tagal ko rin in Summit, pero sa Hinge ilang days lang. parang bitin :-)

Having my OJT in two publications had me thinking nga eh.
Do I wanna work there after grad?

Back in Highschool, I wanted to write talaga.
A friend and I was supposed to go to UST and take up Journalism.
We passed.
But my mom made me study in Southville na lang and take up Masscom, coz UST was scary daw.
My friend continued our plan. but after sometime, she transferred to The Manila Times School of Journalism. haha! at least Journalism pa din!
Ako naman in Southville, I forgot about Journalism na, and concentrated on Advertising (since most of our subject in Southville is somehow related to advertising or production).
So lately, coz I'm exposed to these magazine publications, I got interested again :-)
too bad I didn't take up writing/journalism classes.. too bad that I didn't have enough training for it.
Sayang!

I now sleep with the lights off.

2006-03-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

And no light comes into my room pa!
Like it's pitch black.
The only light is the lil Red light on the TV's power button.
I won't know if my eyes are open or not if I look away from the TV! That's how dark it is!

And I say I'm afraid of the dark!
Eh now I can't sleep with the lights or TV on.
Oha! =P

Improving na ko! haha! Di na scaredy cat.
Before, I was only brave when I'm drunk, or a bit tipsy. Haha!
Well, I hope now hindi na. Drunk or not, dapat tapang pa rin! lol!

I should be ready coz sooner or later I would live alone na.
And I have to learn to live by myself..
Meaning, I should be matapang na..being in the dark, being alone...
Of course learn how to cook, clean, and all other house chores din. Haha!
Pero chaka na yun.. One step at a time lang. lol!

bombahin na natin ang OB. lol!

2006-03-19T13:52:00.000+08:00

As much as I hate Southville, there's this one school I hate more than anything. haha!
And I didn't even study there, ever.

OB Montessori (the one here in bfhomes, just beside Southville).

Everyone in my family hates it! Haha!
My mom and brother even talk about bombing the school or setting it on fire. lol! but of course that was just crazy talk! hahahaha!

Why do we hate that school so much? Hmmm..

Besides the fact that my brother used to study there, and my mom decided to pull him out in the middle of the school year coz of some incident in school. (for those of you who know, it's the scooter thing, and my mom thought that his friends in that school are Bad Influences). haha!

or that time when the teacher found out that their student stole like euros and dollars from his parents, they didn't even tell the parents. or put any sanction on the kid.
Yeah, cool for us students! hahahahaha!
But that shouldnt be the case, they're our teachers, our second mothers, they shouldnt be making "konsinte" the students.
Besides, I don't even go to school there, If I did, that would be a different case. lol! kidding =P

basta there's lots of reasons pa.

The time when my brother was still studying there,
At parent-teacher conferences, they would tell my mom that my brother's a really good kid, but his friends are influencing him lang. but without his friends they think luigi would do great.

...but then, when my mom decided to enroll Luigi to this other school in Las Piñas, they needed a recommendation letter from OB, my mom had to pay the remaining tuition fee just to get that recommendation letter.
Someone from that new school knew my aunt.
They told her that they won't accept my brother, and showed my aunt the recommendation letter.
Grabe daw!
Everything was so negative.
It stated there that my brother was below average
and that he ranked 20+ in a 25-student class
...And that was only from the first page of that letter.
They didn't show the second page to my Aunt anymore
I wonder what's stated there that was worse than what's in the first page.

Geesh! What was all the Parent-Teacher conferences before?
Lies?
Chica lang? lol!
Plastikan?
WTF!

So where do they think Luigi can go with this recommendation letter they made?
or should i say "Non-recommendation" letter! lol!

I bet they're doing this for money.
I mean, if they lose a student, they lose 90 thousand pesos!
That's how expensive it is there, buti sana if you get your money's worth.

Well..only three options:
1. Stop school, forever.
2. Study in OB pa din, and take in all their fake smiles, fake chats, and their money sparkling eyes!
3. Search a school that doesn't require you to pass a recommendation letter (like yung mga kakilala) haha!

Hope we find an Option number 3! =P
coz number 1 is just BS.
and number 2 is just crazy.
Haha!

Oh and one more thing...
OB Montessori in BF hates Southville so much.
They always comment on how the students in Southville are addicts.

I may hate Southville, but I love it much more than OB,
And FYI, Southville treats their students better than OB.
no plastikan, no fake smiles-they're honest and frank.
Sometimes I feel na mukhang pera din Southville,
But not as much as OB!
Haha!
Walang tatalo dun!
lol!

And I just remembered something else...
You know Dr. Preciosa Soliven? --Is she the founder of OB ba?
Oh well, whatever..
Rumors say that Soliven had a statue of an angel done for the school at Greenhills which was patterned sa face niya.
*Ahem*Conceited-Psycho* Haha!

And also read this -- Seipsum Facit Persona

Ranting about school.

2006-03-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

I hate my pc.
I hate my school.
I hate thesis.

Suddenly, I've become so Negative. It sucks!

My revised thesis is due on Thursday.
My prof even threatened me that he won't let me graduate this april if i don't pass it by thurs.
and guess what?
I replaced my Harddisk. so back to scratch yung PC ko.
The PC guy didn't install Microsoft Office. wala daw siyang cd nun.
so now, I can't edit my thesis properly.
And I have no idea about the statistical treatment.
and my Thesis adviser won't help me (which BTW that's supposed to be his job).

plus..
We have this Validation exam tomorrow at 9am. Oral pa ata. Sana hindi.
So i have to study on masscom theories and local current events regarding the media.
and I'm so not ready coz I've been occupied with my thesis prob.

I even forgot my blackshoes in jave's house awhile ago,
and I have to wear it tomorrow.
I hope Jave bring's it to school on time tomorrow.
coz I won't be allowed inside the campus.--and it's my validation exam.

I tried pala to install this microsoft office thingy, but the cd won't work.
All it did was made my pc hang. sucks!

Ok. another prob to rant about.
Anton said we have to pass the interview and pics from our internship on thursday also!
I haven't even finished my internship!
I would've finished it na sana, but I've been absent 3 times because of school stuff (VTR, Validation exams, Pictorial, etc.)
They should give me an extension or something. besides I would finish my internship in a few days na lang.

Oh yeah, one more thing..
I bumped into my prof today.
She was mad.
I thought it was about my thesis.
But no..
It was about my OJT.
I didn't expect it coz I was even proud when I told her I'll be done in a few days.
She asked, "Who endorsed you? Did i endorse you?!" (in a taray tone).
I said Sir Franco did.
And she just walked away.
(I mean, hello!, she was the one who recommended that I have my internship in Hinge, She told me to get a recommendation letter from sir franco and go to hinge to apply.
So I did! and I even asked sir franco if my prof should sign my recommendation letter.
He said "Hindi na, Ako na lang.")

Sorry for my Rantings.

Men see me as desirable. lol!

2006-03-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

Men See You As Desirable

Men often find you immediately attractive and sensual
You're honesty is refreshingly beautiful ... it draws guys in
You are also able to be open with your feelings with no emotional baggage
Packing light means you enjoy new relationships easily

How Do Men See You?

Haha! lafftrip! =P

my yorkie's turning 3 tomorrow!

2006-03-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

It's my Yorkie's 3rd Bday tomorrow!!! or 21 years old when converted to human years i mean dog years. hay whatever.
Haha! same as my age! lol!
he's turning 21, and he's still haven't got any. Bwahahaha!
poor chaddy. lol!
It would be much appreciated if anyone can find chaddy a female yorkie to hump. lol!

Happy Birthday Chad! =)

iFamily - a family addicted to the internet.

2006-03-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

It was around 2pm.
I was posting something in the roller--rocker-tahong site...
..And my mom called to tell me it's time to eat lunch na!

Not thru cellphone.
Not thru landline.
Not even the usual "yelling" that she does.

But thru YM! as in call ah! not message! Haha!
And she was just outside. just behind my room's thin wall. Haha!

We're like an "iFamily"! lol! (ok i just invented a word lol. iFamily-A family addicted to the internet).

Want other proof that we're iFamily material? =P

There are three computers here in our house.
And this afternoon, My mom, my brother and I are all online! -chatting with our Ninang in Australia.

We panick everytime the server is down. lol! - or brownout. haha! (sabay sabay kami lalabas sa rooms namin, complaining.)

We hire a "PCguy" immediately to fix our pc when it's not working, and complain if it'll take more than a day to finish.

I send my school projects or thesis to my mom thru ym to have it printed.

My mom start hating rats so much coz binahayan nung rat yung pc ng mom ko! wahaha!

and dami pa! hahahaha!

This name thing is freaky!

2006-03-11T04:34:00.000+08:00

Got this from Jayvee's blog.

Your name of Cara creates a desire for association with people and new experiences, many of which have been rather bitter. This name has given you a gregarious personality and a quick-thinking, creative, and versatile nature, but one that is very emotional. You desire change and travel and would enjoy opportunities that allowed you to be creative and to act independently, rather than to conform to system and routine. However, this name does not allow you to complete your undertakings, as farther fields always look greener.

While the name Cara creates the urge to create harmony with people, we call attention to the fact that it causes a restless intensity that defies relaxation. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and solar plexus.

..............

It really is me! galing! as in saktong sakto. freaky!

I took the simple test pa lang. what if I took the one with the last name pa?!

roller rocker tahong

2006-03-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

I made a blog of Jave's Car. Haha!
Yes! A blog. lol!

It's so obvious that I'm addicted to blogs that I even made jave's car a blog!
Haha! Yes..I'm weird. Haha!

Actually, Jave wanted it, but he doesnt know how.
Heck, I even set-up his own blog! as in not the car one, but a personal blog. Haha!

soo.. check the "Roller Rocker Tahong" site. kk? =P

Jave and my brother?! haha!

2006-03-09T10:37:00.000+08:00

get this..
I haven't seen Jave since sunday...
...and now he's with my brother. lol!

as in pagkasundo nya sa brother ko I was still sleeping so I wasn't even able so say Hi or Goodmorning to him! hahahaha!

[edited three times most recently at 03.09.06 4:03pm]

2:50pm
And I texted him now asking where he was..
..And guess what?
HE'S AT MY PLACE. LOL! (and he'll leave na rin in awhile)
and I'm here at work. bwahahaha!

4:03pm
and now they're in jave's house.
as in with my brother pa din ah!
Is my brother proxy sakin for today? haha!
This is so BROKEBACK! LOL!

I think I'm going crazy! Haha!

2006-03-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

Usually I prefer having alone time.
I actually love treating myself to a nice retaurant.
But lately, I hate it.
I've been having my internship in Hinge Media in Makati.
And I'm alone.
I eat alone, I walk alone--and I hate it.
In just two days, I already miss the company of my friends-- surprisingly fast for an introvert.
Napapanis na laway ko just by observing people around me. Haha!
Don't get me wrong, I so love observing people, i get to discover a lot!
-but not for two days, what more for two weeks!
I might go crazy! Haha!
Friends, Help me maintain the normal me..
Dine with me in Makati! =P
Pls?=P
lol!

[edited one time at 5:15pm March 6, 2006]

It's bad that I had to eat alone today at lunch.
But what's worse is that my order took an hour to serve, and i just ordered sisig ricemeal and adobong kangkong!
My luncbreak's just an hour so I had to eat my meal fast.
My tongue got burnt and I didn't appreciate the food (coz I couldn't taste it anymore).
I barely touched my adobong kangkong, not that it didn't taste good--it was actually good, I just didn't have enough time to eat it.
I ended up returning to work 30mins late, though I don't think it mattered, it's just nakakahiya to the Hinge people.

Today's a sad and lonely day for me.
No calls or texts from Jave or anyone else, except for EC's usual nonstop quotes
which I couldn't reply to coz I'm saving up my load
plus the txtunlimited couldn't push thru--too bad for my quote sending trips.

At one of my breaks awhile ago, I saw a Revo (as same as Jave's) park in Mile Long.
I actually imagined Jave getting off that Revo with a big surprise smile on his face! Haha!
But of course he didn't.
Of course it wasn't him.
Just my imagination. Haha!
Told you I'm going crazy!
It's not too late you know..
I just need more interaction with people. Real people. Haha!
2 more hours to go and I'll be home from Makati.
Pray that I'll be home before this craziness consume me! Haha!

my grad speech. lol!

2006-03-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

I was the first enrollee of Southville College.
Yes, the very first.
And now I'll be graduating.
It feels like yesterday when eating somai sitting on grocery baskets in select
or a trike ride to poolshark to hangout used to be the in thing.
I was still a kid then,
the softspoken clueless girl with long hair,
the girl who was still blinded by fun and goodtimes,
an easygoing whiney girl living in a shallow dream world.
But after four years, a lot has changed.
Yes, I'm the same longhaired girl,
sometimes still softspoken but not anymore clueless.
I can surely say that I've matured, I've learned and I've become aware.
I've blossomed into a lovely butterfly.
I now cry less, appreciate more, love fully and embrace reality.
Southville taught me. Time molded me. Experience improved me.

i was wrong.

2006-02-26T14:48:00.000+08:00

I should'nt have wished to be off to dreamland lastnight.
coz In DreamLand.... I Cried..and Cried..and Cried.

why?

coz in my dream, I didnt get the birthay I wanted. lol!
I know!..mababaw!

but I still cried...
And it's no ordinary cry.
super hagulgol, and I couldnt breathe.
it was like I lost someone dear to me.

I was wrong, I shouldnt have wished to be off to dreamland :(

Where I wanna go? Off to dreamland!

2006-02-26T02:41:00.000+08:00

1.WHAT DATE IS IT?
- feb 26 2006, sunday, 2:45am.

2. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP?
- 1 or 2pm- i forgot.

3. DID YOU GO SOMEWHERE?
- to kuya bobby and Bubuliman's house =)

4. WHAT DID YOU DO THERE?
- kuya bobby-I went with Jave kasi pinalagay niya yung new thing niya sa car niya.
-Bubuliman's house-watched Angels in America (another Gay Movie).

5. HOW OLD ARE YOU?
- 21

6. ARE YOU MATURE OR IMMATURE?
- hmmm.. mature? not really.. getting there =P

7. WHAT DO YOU CALL YOUR MOM & DAD?
- Ma and Pa.

8. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
- nope.

9. WHERE DO YOU GO SHOPPING?
- ruins or wherever sa mall. i go shop-hopping to find the perfect top or whatever.

10. WHATS YOUR PERFUME/COLOGNE?
- DKNY Be Delicious.

11. YOU USE IT EVERYDAY?
- yes.

12. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED?
- of course.

13. WITH WHOM?
- my bubuliman =P

14. ARE YOU SPOILED?
- i don't think so. though someone has called me spoiled na. but I really don't think I am.

15. WHATS THE MOST FLATTERING
COMPLIMENT YOU EVER GOT?
- hmmm?.. pass! =P (sorry wala ko maisip eh).

16. ONLY GIRL/BOY IN THE FAMILY?
- uhmm.. kinda. i have 2 half sisters kasi =)

17. IF YOU WERE TO MARRY A CELEBRITY,
WHO WOULD IT BE?
- Ashton Kutcher? too bad anjan si Demi Moore. HAHA! can't compete with her. LOL!

18. WOULD YOU LIKE TO MEET REGINE
VELASQUEZ?
- uhhmm.. no..

19. WHERE DO YOU THINK YOUR BESTFRIEND
IS?
- sleeping at the oldrose-colored house in bfrv. =P (my bestfriend being bubuliman ah).

20. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED
TO YOUR BESTFRIEND?
- just awhile ago.

21. YOU THINK SHE/HE NEEDS YOU NOW?
- he's sleeping, so i guess not.

23. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR
BIRTHDAY?
- My Birthday Wishlist

25. IF YOU WERE TO BUY A CAR , WHICH CAR
WOULD IT BE?
- a Z. or an RX-8. or that TRD na celica i saw in atc. sige sige Skyline na lang. Haha!

26. A DUET WITH HEART EVANGELISTA?
- no thanks.

27. DO YOU WEAR MAKE-UP?
- most of the time- no. But i do wanna look and feel extra-pretty sometimes. =P

28. WHAT LIP BALM DO YOU USE?
- BubbleYum. tastes like candy, even bought it in candy corner! =P

29. WOULD YOU GET A TATOO?
- I have one.

30. BELLY PIERCE?
- love to, but I have to work out muna. Haha!

31. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
- 1,2,3,4? doesnt matter, basta wag lalagpas ng 4. pero wait, i think i prefer 2 lang pala.

32. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOMEWORK?
- nope. unless you consider applying in Hinge for my OJT a homework! lol!

33. ANY SONG THAT YOU'RE LISTENING?
- none.

34. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SPELLS?
- the "charmed" kind? -nope.

35. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO NOW?
- as in right now? off to dreamland! =P (I wanna sleep na eh) hehe

1. Where did you go last friday?
- Araneta Colliseum. to watch the WWE thingy. Haha!

2. Did you have fun?
- surprisingly yes, even if I'm not into wrestling AT ALL! haha!

3. Who were you with? Were they cool?
- With bubuliman and his brothers. of course! =)

4. What time did you sleep last nyt?
- late. like madaling-araw late.

5. Have you gone to the beach just w/ your
buddies?
- yep! and I miss it na nga eh! we better go again!

6. Do you love sunsets?
- yep! lying on a balsa waiting for the sunset is the best!

7. What's the worst thing you have ryt now that
you didn't have a month ago?
- OJT related problem, which isnt really a problem at all, coz il be applying na sa monday in hinge. =)

8. when is your b-day?
- Feb1.

9. What are your wishes for your birthday?
- My Birthday Wishlist

10. Who do you wanna be w/ on the day of your
birthday?
- my bubuliman. family. and friends.

11. Have you ever felt that you've been taken for
granted?
- I don't know. Guess not.

13. Do you miss your school??
- I hate my School! haha! Southville Sucks! Glad I'll be graduating na sa march.

14. What's the best thing that happened to you?
- Can't thing of one specific thing. There's lots!

15. thing/s you regret?
- I've done a lot that I regret doing. but hey, those things served as a lesson for me, and made me for who I am now =)

16. Is there anything else you want to do besides
answering this survey?
- sleep. Haha! That's how addicted I am to this Blog thingy, I need to post more than I need my sleep. lol!

17. What's the most important sentence/s that
lingers in your mind right now?
-The only thing in my mind now is. "finish this survey, and sleep."

18. cookies n' cream or double dutch?
- cookies and cream... =)

19. Chocolate cake or brazo de mercedez? ==
- Conti's Moist Chocolate Cake, and no other.

20. Do you know how to drive?
- sad to say, no.

21. What's the biggest mistake you've ever had?
- I don't wanna announce my mistakes to the world naman. Haha! well i guess my answer here is same as in Number 15.

22. Do you like spongebob?
- no. I hate him. and I hate his cartoon show. too slapstick for me.

23. Do you know how to play the guitar?
- no. I wanted to learn before as in recently lang nga eh, but as I assumed, di ko rin naumpisahan.

24. What song is in your head right now ?
- "All A Nigga really need's a lil bit..." and I dont know why yun yung nasa mind ko! haha!

25. Is there anyone you wanna talk to at this very
moment? who?
- no one. i just wanna sleep.

26. Who's the last person you texted?
- my mom, asking if they'll go to the grocery today.

27. KFC or Kenny Rogers?
- KFC. =)

28. Beach or Mountain?
- BEACh =)

29. Do you find yourself sexy and beautiful??
- Yes. I love Myself. Angal? =P

30. Did you have accomplishments the past week?
- Defended my Thesis na! Yey!

31. Hotdogs or cheesedogs?
- Cheesedogs. Hotdogs are too plain.

32. Do you like Shawarma?
- yep! love it! I'm craving for Gourmets Shawarma tuloy!

33.is there sum1 ur misin ryt nw?
- yep. my brother. my dad. and my halfsiblings.

34.who is he/she?
- i stated it above na.

35. Do you love someone right now,
- yes.♥♥♥ and everyone knows that already.♥♥♥

I Love. I Hate.

2006-02-23T04:50:00.000+08:00

This is another post About Me (i love myself too much. Haha!)
I've decided to post my About me in friendster and Myspace here.
Why? --Wala lang.
*I've added some more. meaning mas marami to than the one in my friendster.
BTW, this is in no particular order.

I LOVE:
1.) Bubuliman
2.) Chaddyboy
3.) Flipflops
4.) Yellow
5.) Beaches
6.) Sunsets
7.) Absolut Kurant
8.) Tequila shots
9.) CrazyKulitTrips
9.) Sour Tapes and Worms
10.) Photos and Photoshop
11.) The Internet
12.) Conti's Moist Chocolate Cake
13.) Beads
14.) SoloRelaxTime
15.) MovieFunNights
16.) StarGazingCheeziness
17.) McdoFries
18.) Out-Of-Town Trips
19.) Forgiveness
20.) LIFE
21.) sleeping in til noon
22.) sunnyside up eggs which u can make dutdot bread sa yolk nya. (gets?)
23.) c2 lemon flavor
24.) White Rabbit candy (the one which u can eat pati wrapper)
25.) Night Swimming sa beach (nagglow pa yung water.. astig!)
26.) Surprises! (not the bad kind, malamang!) =P
27.) FridayInumanNights
28.) Birthday Parties! (I get excited pa nga to buy them presents, that is kung may money! haha)
29.) The Fish Fillet mom buys in the grocery (yum!)
30.) Blogs =)

I HATE:
1.) ColdMorningShowers
2.) The Loud Horn of the Buses in Edsa
3.) Suka (the sawsawan)
4.) Chinese Food
5.) Deadlines
6.) CrazyDriving of a TaxiDriver
7.) How I always Procrastinate
8.) The dirty streets of Manila
9.) SlapstickComedy
10.) AwkwardSilence
11.) Quarrels
12.) DramaQueens
13.) Pessimism
14.) PretentiousPeople
15.) Waking up early
16.) This Unjust World
17.) Ipis! (I can't stand being in a room with one tiny ipis)
18.) Non-nutricious FastFoods. (Kaso pag tipid, I always end up eating in one. The food's yummy but I hate the feeling after eating)
19.) The super yabang na wala namang pagmamayabang
20.) Cold-hearted people
21.) Noise in Cinemas. (todo concentrate ako while watching, so ssshhh!)
22.) When I'm sleepy and hungry at the same time! (should I eat? or sleep? torture! Haha!)
23.) InsomiacNights (When i try to sleep at around 9pm and end up twisting and turning in bed til the sun shines the next day!)
24.) Not knowing what to say
25.) Funerals (I just don't know what to say to the people mourning)
26.) The wiring and the saksakan in my room now! (gulo and isa lang main saksakan, so extension lang, scary sometimes baka sumabog or something)
27.) My PC now (daming sira, til now wala pa rin sounds. tsk)
28.) SMS.ac (they keep on deducting load from me when someone wants to add me as a friend! I finally deactivated my account there)
29.) Manyak Trike Drivers (sometimes when I ride the trike, i catch them looking at the side mirror. tsss..)
30.) How strict some guards are in southville! (imagine, they say you need to be in uniform, even if you don't have a class!)

remember the edible-wrappered chewy candy?

2006-02-21T22:43:00.000+08:00

first i was addicted to:
kokokrunch... then.. sour gummy worms... then candycorn (for a day)...
and now...

YUP! WHITE RABBIT! hahahaha! =P
the one which u can eat pati yung wrapper. bwahahaha!
fave ko na to when i was a kid pa eh!
saw a stall in festi which sells this. bought one plastic kagad!

hmmm... now I'm craving for something else tuloy...
you know the milk powder na may straw pa that u can buy in sarisari stores for a peso or 5 (i forgot).. basta tagal na nun.. when I was a kid pa!
now, where can I find that? =P hmmmm..

Light, Pale or StrongIce?

2006-02-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

Cessy, Jave and I went to Zarky's last Thursday to drink. (EC came din, pero late)

since I don't have enough money for my usual AbsolutKurant order.. I ordered SanMigLight instead.

see the pic above?
funny. coz I ordered SMLight (coz i hate the taste of beer, and yung feeling sa tummy)
Jave ordered PalePilsen (Tumatanda na! LOL! he was convinced kasi by my mom that Pale tastes better).
and Cessy ordered Strong Ice!

Hahaha! Ibaiba! LOL!

you? What do you prefer sa tatlo? and why? =)

my cute and gay yorkie =P

2006-02-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

everyone was out last friday.. except for me and chaddy!

so chaddy was sad.

took some pics!

even if he's sad super sute pa rin!

chaddy in my mom's bed.

tulala si chaddy. sad.

chaddy sleeping. using the pillow pa! sosyal!

Year 2006- Tragedies. Sickness. Problems.

2006-02-13T15:09:00.000+08:00

Fires, Stampedes, Accidents, and all other Tragedies...
What's with 2006?

I know I've posted something like this before..
but.. really..
What's with this year?

It's only Februaury.. the 2nd Month of the year..
and yet...
A lot has happened.. Tragedies. Sickness. Problems.

When will it stop?
When will we learn?
When will we be rescued?

Today's the most Gloomiest day for me..
especially in school.
I was not in the mood to joke around and act happy.
Nor was the entire SISC population.
everyone was serious.
everyone was sad.
everyone was grieving.

I heard people talking about what happened to Chard, hoping and thinking that it was all just a horrible dream, a nightmare perhaps.
I too wished that. I really wished that when i wake up tomorrow, I'll see Chard Smiling and laughing in the School's Hallways, and He'll give me a high-five saying "Hey Starfish!"
But...
I know It's not gonna happen.
Impossible.

Year 2006- Tragedies. Sickness. Problems. (i know, i need to be more optimistic about this)

We need a Miracle.
Lets pray.
Lets unite.
Lets act.

RIP Richard Capili

2006-02-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

As I've said before...
I don't know what's with year 2006..

Chard, thanks for being such an inspiration for all of us.
Thanks for the friendship..
the late nights mIRC chats..
the "#southvillians" memories..
The smiles and the high-fives..
our kulit conversations..

Thanks for everything!

you'll be forever be in our hearts and in our lives.

I'll miss how you call me The Starfish when we see each other in school. It was you pa nga that gave me that nickname. "The Jave's Starfish" remember?

We'll miss you!

R.I.P Richard Capili

starting to get cheesy again. (suddenly)

2006-02-11T14:27:00.000+08:00

call me cheesy or whatever...
but...
when i was listening to my fave song- suddenly by soraya.
it hit me...
That's my song for Jave =)
exactly what I wanted to say to him =)
Love you bubuliman. LOL! =)

Suddenly
-Soraya

A thousand eyes looking at me
But yours is the look that goes right
Through me and I
Cannot hide from your stare
Should I let you in - do I dare
Some other hands have tried before
But yours is the touch that makes me
Want more and I
Cannot hide the urgency
To have you lying here with me because

Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me
Mystified and I cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive

A thousand words have tried to say
But yours are the ones who'll never
Fade away and I
Cannot hide from their sound
I am mesmerized spinning round and round
And some other hearts have tried to steal mine
But yours is the one that I now hold dear
I'll do what it takes to keep you here
I'm a selfish fool but I have no fear

Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me
Mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive

A thousand times I've tried to stay
Alone by pushing you away
Time after time and tear after tear
I find myself back here with you
A thousand visions have come to me
Promising serenity
As I struggle to find the source of this peace
I always end up with your kiss

Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me
Mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive

Suddenly in my life
There's something that's got me
Mystified and I
Cannot fight it but I can try
To keep the wonder of it alive

download the song here.

want the spanish version? download here.

Candy-loving =)

2006-02-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

Remember this?

i'm craving for it! =P
where can I find one kaya?
Parang I don't see this na kasi eh. Hahaha!

and...
This is what I'm munching now =P

Thanks baby for leaving your candy corner plastic here! Hahahahahaha! =P
BTW, I think I'm loving the candycorn thing na! Hahahaha! =P

Ubos Candies mo sakin! Bwahahahaha! =)

this is my four. what's yours? =P

2006-02-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

got this from Miss Iya Santos

4 Jobs I’ve Had In My Life:

1. an intern in cosmo-editorial (pwede ba to?) haha!
2. extra's in commercials. LOL!
3. when i was a kid pala, i was in this pictorial for a real estate brochure, haha! got paid 8k =P I had to pretend i was in front of Enchanted Kingdom, and that I'm really excited. LOL!
4. dancer/host in a kid's party. LOL! and i was 10 yrs old then! haha! not a paying job though, just some fun trip my friends and I did before.

*sorry ah. i'm still a student kasi, and i havent really worked yet. =P
soon i will though, i'll be graduating this march! yey! =P

4 Movies I Could Watch Over and Over:

1. The Butterly Effect. -the best movie ever! =) great story na nga, si ashton pa! =)
2. Romeo + Juliet. -I actually watched it everyday for two month when i was in gradeschool! haha. weird-I know!
3. Wicker Park. -Josh Hartnett is just so cute!♥♥♥ (oh no! i sound like a highschool kikay girl)
4. A Lot Like Love. - Another Ashton Film. *kilig* movie =P

4 TV Shows I Love To Watch:

1. American Idol. -everyone here (at home) watches this everytime it's on. as in WE can't miss it! hahaha!
2. Pinoy Big Brother - just the same with American Idol. We even have Livestream! LOL!
3. Scrubs -love their sarcastic jokes. Haha!
4. The OC - the only drama show I watch. =P

4 Places I’ve Lived In:

1. San Juan
2. Sta. Mesa
3. Cainta
4. The south =P (Alabang and BF Homes)

*dami pa actually. haha!

4 Places I’ve Been On Vacation To:

1. Walang kamatayang Matabungkay =P haha!
2. Australia -visited my Ninang =) but that was way before pa, Grade school pa. LOL!
3. Baguio
4. Those islands in Batangas (tagged along sa scuba trips ni tito bob before kasi) I miss it na nga eh :(

4 Places I Would Rather Be In Like To Visit:

1. Bora muna, haha! this summer na ata =) sana tuloy. haha!
2. Amanpulo (but i think its impossible coz its too damn expensive!) HAHA!
3. Paris =) -i just think the place is so sweet and romantic ♥♥♥
4. to all the beaches in the world LOL! hahahahaha. as if!

4 Of My Favorite Foods:

1. the Fish Fillet that mom buys sa grocery -YUM! with lemon butter sauce ah.
2. Putokputok a.k.a lato or latok- Haha! i forgot the name! basta my cousins and I call it putokputok. sasaw mo sa calamansi and patis- the best! =)
3. Salmon Sashimi in Tropical and nowhere else! as in dun lang gusto ko. pag sa ibang place, I won't eat it kahit anong pilit mo sakin.
4. The Ceasar Salad Kit from Ninang.- the best pag in a hurry ka to eat, and you want to eat something yummy and healthy =)

4 Websites I Visit Daily:

1. My Blogspot
2. My Multiply
3. Friendster
4. Myspace

*Kulang yung space eh. pero yung ritual ko talaga is check Blogspot, then VCZ forum, then multiply, then friendster, then myspace, then yahoo mail. then back to my blogspot ;-)

Everything Happens for a Reason. BS?

2006-02-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

I read in someone's blog that he onced believed in the saying "Everything Happens for a Reason" but now believes that life is what you make it.
and I realized, I too share the same idea.

Before, the line that everyone hears from me often was "Everthing happens for a reason," but now I know for myself that it isn't true, that it's BS.
Everything doesnt happen beacuse it's meant to happen. Things happen because of your actions. Like a cause and effect kind of thing but in a much complicated manner.
Things may sometimes seem that it was meant to happen, but I'm sorry to say that those are just lucky 'coincidences', which BTW, isn't a bad thing at all. Just like a blessing in disguise kind of thing. You should also pay attention to these 'coincidences' and maybe you'll find what your looking for in life.

You know what's sad about the "Everything happens for a reason" saying?
Most of the time people use it to justify every bad thing that happens to them.
For example, a girl didn't get into the college where she really really hoped, wished and prayed she would study. And she says, "Ok lang yun, everything happens for a reason naman e," and wouldnt try appealing or something because she now thinks that maybe she wasn't meant to go to that school, and maybe there's something better out there waiting for her.
Haay, a really bad way of thinking.
Yeah, yeah, optimism is healthy..
but shouldn't we have persistence and motivation to succeed and be happy?
and NOT thinking that everything will come easy to us.

Lets stop the notion that things we do and experience prepares us for our upcoming 'happy' future, because that's just not enough if you want to be happy and contented with your life.
It's all about the choices you make and the lessons you've learned.
So choose your path. Learn. Decide. Risk. And live your life the way you truly want it!

Thesis-free --for now =P

2006-02-09T01:20:00.000+08:00

at last!!!
time to relax - even if for a day or two lang =P

this week has been really busy because of my thesis.
everynight -puyat!
tapos gising maaga to consult with my adviser.
and even when i'm not in front of my PC doing my thesis.. i still can't rest and relax coz my mind's occupied with thesis pa rin (worried if mapass ko siya in time, or what i'm i gonna say sa defense, etc.)

i'm thesis-free!!! -FOR NOW =P hahaahah! until friday lang. LOL!

passed my whole thesis this afternoon. complete with table of contents, bibliography, appendices and acknowledgement. Haha!
pero grabe rin yung nangyari before ko ma-pass yun ah!
for starters.. i was puyat- for two or more days magkasunod.
the other night- started doing my thesis when JV left - around 10pm(?) and finished at 7am!!!
last night - started my thesis around 2 or 3 in the afternoon. and ended at 4am!!! yep! straight yun ah! except pala for my dinnerbreak and The OC break. but still!
since i finished with everything at 4am na. i thought my mom slept na (yung printer kasi nandun sa room nya), so i decided tomorrow na lang ako paprint before i go to school.
woke up 11am. received a text from anton that sir agulto (my adviser) will be at school til 2pm lang. so i rushed, got ready for school. and checked if my mom was up na -and she wasn't.
waited for her til 12nn-wala pa rin.
naisip ko to print in the computer shops na lang. but my thesis was around 90 pages. and diba 10 pesos per page sa computer shops.. and i dont think i would spend 900pesos just for printing!
goodthing jave called. he said he'll pick me up daw and dun kami lunch sa house nya. so nakiprint na lang ako. kahiya nag coz 90 pages yun! haha. but i was desperate. =P
since it was 90 pages, super tagal ng printing! tumopak pa PC nila jave plus nagJAM yung paper sa printer. haha pangasar!
we left his house mga 1:45 na ata. and tagal pa naman sa stoplight sa ceciles! i was so worried that di ko maabutan si sir agulto.
thank God- naabutan ko. He was busy pa nga eh and made me wait for 20 mins sa office nya. nyek! haha!

too bad my thesis wasn't final yet. may revision pa before the defense. sir will give back my thesis with the revisions on friday daw. and i have to return it to him plus 3 other copies on monday.. and on wednesday, i get to defend it na! at last!

...nga pala, diba i finished my thesis last night around 4am and naisip ko tulog na mom ko kaya i didnt print it yet? -well, turns out she was still awake that time!!! sayang! she slept around 4:30am na daw. ahhaha oh well..

i'll sign off na muna for now =)
off to get a goodnight's rest! finally! hahaha
it's good that i get to sleep early tonight.
hmmm.. it's 1:42am. early?
for me it is! hahahahaha!
GOODNIGHT ☺

My handwrting sucks! haha!

2006-02-08T23:10:00.000+08:00

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

i don't think the interpretation was right. hahaha
the only thing in the interpretation that I think best describes me is this: " You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others."

BTW, stole this from La =P

notice anything in the picture? creepy shit!

2006-02-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

turned my pc on to do my thesis - which is BTW due on wednesday! for my defense on friday!

and so i did my ritual before working on something for work or school:
CHECK MY SITES =P

blogspot..
multiply..
friendster..
myspace..
and the vczR forum =)

so that when i'm working on my thesis na, wala nang distractions.
BUT...
when i checked my multiply..
i saw this comment from jordan:

...Notice Anything In This Picture?...

and it really creeped me out!!! sobra!
I dunno if you can see it? or if tama ba nakita ko.
parang may face sa may tree behind us!
scary shit!
and that was taken in our resthouse in batangas pa naman!
and we're there every holyweek, and almost every holloween!

click here to see the actual comment of jordan in my multiply.

and now i'm so creeped out na to do my thesis! haha!

edited:
mali pala!
jordan just messaged me na hindi yung face sa tree yung sinasabi nya..
there a whitelady daw dun sa may door ng cottage behind us.
nakayuko, kita hair. hirap daw explain.

here oh.. look:

and take note ah.. that time when this picture was taken.. everyone else was asleep na -IN THE OTHER COTTAGE. coz we werent allowed to sleep in the cottage behind us coz for the family lang yan.
the only people awake that time was - angel, jord, me, jave and my 2 cousins. and jave and my two cousins were sitting in front of us 3 that time.

haha! takot na ko sa beachhouse namin! LOL!

Our Eurostar Night! Full of Craziness and Dizziness!

2006-02-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

went to eurostar carnival...
it's sort of an extension celebration of my bday =P
went with jave (the bubuli-man[loko lang baby!]), and his brothers- pao and mike =)

400 pesos ride all you can. though the rides were limited compared to EK..
it's limited nga but the rides are THE BOMB! hahahaha!
oh.. if you don't want the ride all you can, you can pay 200pesos for the entrance and just buy tokens inside for the rides.

rode the....

rip-off of the rio grande of EK. i think it's exactly the same. mas maarte lang yung sa EK sa design haha!

the zipper/ flipper. i forgot the name! LOL! but after i rode that thing.. i dont ever wanna ride it again! haha! super nakakahilo! I didnt know it titled sideways! as in super side ha! and super ikot ng ikot. eh I hated nakakahilo rides pa naman!

as usual-bump cars. I kept bugging Jave. Haha! Siya always ko hinahanap to bump! =P

and the JOKER a.k.a G-Force. it was really scary. but exciting. haha! sure loved it more than the flipper/zipper thing. coz di sha nakakahilo at all. but feeling mo you'll be thrown out of that thing and it's super high pa naman!

i didnt ride the other nakakahilo ride na. what's that called ba? booster? haha whatever! i didnt wanna try it na coz if i didnt like the milder version of it, then why the hell would i like it?! haha!

and it's good that the Ranger's out of order. Haha! I think that the exage version of EK's anchors away! haha! and i mean like 360 turn ata. tama ba? oh well. Goodthing wala sha that night! coz i wouldnt wanna try it!
-you can call me a chicken-but at least i tried the G-force thingy =P

and now for the pics...

waiting in ine for the ferriswheel.
bubuli man with his wild pose, me and mike.

hmmm... where should I go next? =P

sad? lonely? -nope.. just tripping! =P

mike, pao and I- sitting on the bangketa
after eating our free food!

the Joker a.k.a G-Force that we rode last.
yep! save the best for last! =P

***click the title for more pictures =P

is 2006 malas?

2006-02-04T13:42:00.000+08:00

what's with this year?

is 2006 malas?

or the year of the fire dog?

a lot of people are dying..
there are a lot of tragedies..
like the fire in laspiñas... TWICE.. magkasunod pa na araw.
and the stampede in wowowee today. 79 killed..

other than that...
loved ones passed away.

and..
some found out they're sick.

sad..sad..

a hope things would turn over.

am i claustrophobic?

2006-02-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

claus·tro·pho·bi·a (klôstr-fb-)

NOUN:

An abnormal fear of being in narrow or enclosed spaces.

am i claustrophobic or what?

cause whenever the MRT passes thru a tunnel--I couldn't breathe.

is that normal?

my wednesday-birthday-wishlist =P

2006-01-30T00:12:00.000+08:00

hassle i was doing this post awhile ago, and my pc crashed!
everything i typed here--all gone.
it was almost finished already! sucks! haha!

anyway, my wednesday bday's coming up.
so i decided to make a wishlist.
even if it is unlikely that i'll get what i asked for! bwahahaha!
i'm turning 21 on feb1 and i dont think people will still give me gifts. haha!
and i'd rather receive cash instead! ahahhaha!

so here it goes..
my wishlist (from the over-the-top to the cheap thing i want)

1.) a digicam. preferrably a casio exilim (in memory of my old and broken digicam) so i won't have a hard time learning how to operate it.

2.) an ipod nano. i know it lacks memory but it's sleek and stylish. =P

3.) havaianas. preferrably the hot pink top havaianas. or the gold or brown one.
or you could do this:

ALL FLIP FLOPS
Location: 2/F Glorietta 3

All Flip-Flops is the first retail store in the world to carry one hundred percent Havaianas merchandise. This Havaianas hub offers special and limited-edition collections along with exclusive promos for loyal customers.

Check out the 2006 Havaianas collection this holiday season!

Can't decide on the perfect pair for that special someone, surprise them with an All Flip Flops Gift Certificate so they can pick that perfect pair for themselves.

Find All Flip Flops at the Second Level of Glorietta 3 Ayala Center Makati.

*btw, my size is BRA 37/38
bwahahahaha! =P

4.) a yellow funky stylish bag. i saw one in terranova in galleria. this yellow bag with buddha beads as the handle. basta. nice =P

5.) chandelier earrings. if not, a funky earrings will do =P

6.) beads. necklace. bracelet. whatever. basta be sure its funky and unique enough. haha!

7.) a red hot bikini =P

from Wahine. (i think it's available in Rustans Makati)
though any bikini will do =P basta halter style. bwahahaha!

for ninang: there's a wahine shop in your area! *ehem* LOL

Bateau Bay Surf
101A Bateau Bay Rd Bateau Bay NSW 2261
02 4332 1157

8.) a conti's cake. either mango bravo or chocolate surprise. or whatever looks yummy.

CONTI'S Pastry Shop & Restaurant
61 President Avenue
B.F. Homes Commercial
Paranaque City
TEL +63.2.842.5265
CEL +63.917.844.5852

9.) fix my PC. or help me get it fixed. haha! =P. aba, if you know how to fix computers, do mine for free =P hahahahaha!

10.) sing me a happy birthday song. ON STAGE! =P LOL! demanding!

11.) cd. yep as in cd. as in songs ah. compilation ng mga fave songs ko. coz i'm using the diskman to play songs and i'm out of cd's to play. lahat nasa computer ko na sira and sounds or nasa ipod ni jave.

12.) a sweet happy birthday kiss and hug! :-* (for jave lang to. LOL!)

13.) a bottle of Absolut Kurant. or Tequila or whatever. para inumin natin. bwahahah! para Happy Birthday talaga! =P

14.) a helping hand - sa thesis ko! hahaha! =P

15.) a ride to ortigas (galleria) sometime this week. =P hahaha. i know, i'm pushing my wishlist too far!.. so what! kaya nga wish list eh.

16.) kikay stuff. lipgloss. blush. brushes. etc.

17.) belts. satin belts. normal belts. thick or thin. whatever. haha!

18.) a comment on my blog. or a testi in friendster. hahaha ayan. that's simple =P

19.) make me smile =)

20.) surpise me. kaw bahala. flowers? dinner/lunch at an exotic restaurant? or a roadtrip adventure? or whatever you have in mind.

21.) greet me a happy birthday =P that'll do. =)

the gorgeous Kate Hudson =)

2006-01-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

i'm not really a hardcore fan of her.
and i don't actually know anything about her.. just that she's goldie hawn's daughter.
but i enjoy watching her movies...

i so love her smile...

and the way she acts =)

she's so gorgeous right? =P

i'm a water drinker now =)

2006-01-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

facts about drinking water

click the link and read how important it is to drink water. =)

haha! seems weird that I'm the one who advices people to drink water when everybody knows that i am so addicted to coca-cola. CORRECTION. WAS ADDICTED! =) hahahahaha. not anymore.

yup! you read that right. =P no more coca-colas for me. (actually meron pa rin pero bihira).
and this time i'm not craving for it anymore =) yey for me! =P

ok, so what made me realize the importance of water??

well, i was having my OJT in cosmo. and Claire asked me to research about the facts of water.
and so I did. and after I read those articles.
It hit me.
I need Water! =)

haha!
Thanks to Claire! LOL! =)

post-it: Do My Thesis!

2006-01-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha!
i need to do my thesis na talaga!

my topic: the effect of women in liquor print ads to the male college students of SISC..
it's basically about the brandrecall of the respondents and the sales of the product as well in relation to the women endorsers of the liquor ad.

it's due on feb6 already!
i'm so lazy to do it lately coz my birthday's coming up and i just want to relax and enjoy the week.
too bad.
oh well.. better concentrate on my thesis na.

relax-chillax with Norah Jones.

2006-01-27T01:42:00.000+08:00

what have i been listening to lately?

norah jones--feels like home =)

haha! and guess who own's the norah jones cd here. not me, but my mom or tito bob ba? ewan!
i really love listening to norah jones -relaxing =)
lalo na now that i'm stressed with OJT and thesis..
when i feel that my head's gonna explode with all the research and sleepless nights, i just play the norah jones cd and relax-chillax for awhile.

oldskul style nga eh- diskman pa! pero not earphones but yung speaker ng pc ko.
coz something's wrong with my pc's sounds eh. ewan ko ba!

Be Here To Love Me
by Norah Jones

I see conclusion in all this confusion of mine.
Though you and I both know it´s only the warm glow of wine
that´s got you to feeling this way
- but I don´t care, I want you to stay.

Just hold me and tell me you´ll be here to love me today.

Children are dancing, the gamblers all chancing their all.
Well, window´s accusing the door of abusing the wall.
But who cares what the nightwatchmen say;
the stage has been set for the play.

So just hold me and tell me you´ll be here to love me today.

The moon´s come and gone, but a few stars hang on to the sky.
The wind´s running free, but it ain´t up to me to ask why.
But the poets are demanding their pay
and they´ve left me with nothing to say.

Except hold me and tell me you´ll be here to love me today
Just hold me and tell me you´ll be here to love me today.
Just hold me and tell me you´ll be here to love me today

♥♥♥

The Jave Surprise =P

2006-01-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

funny..when jave walked into gourmet's palate in zapote around noon today, he was surprised....

....surprised to see me! =) hhahahaha!

earlier, i texted him that i was at work already, in summit media, in galleria.
but as I was texting him, i was actually on a tricycle on my way to gourmet's! =)

yep, he really believed I was at work. He had no clue Whatsoever.
..and I made sure He ate in Gourmet's, coz if not-- the surprise-->down the drain.
i texted him- "Buti ka pa makakakain sa Gourmets, ako sawa na sa foodcourt."
hahhaha! - The Power Of Suggestion! =P

I so wish I had a camera to capture his reaction when he saw me! hahahaha! panalo! =P

countdown to my wednesday birthday =P

2006-01-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

9 days, 8 hours, 36 minutes and 31 seconds to go until my BIRTHDAY! =)

hahaha may countdown pa eh. LOL!

dami ko nga gusto eh...
-laptop
-digicam
-cellphone
-ipod

haha lahat ng gadgets! hahaha. pero over the top na yun. no budget for that.

so i'll settle for clothes, accessories, flipflops or whatever. hahahaha! KIKAY! =)
i might treat myself to those KIKAY stuff, if i have enough money =)
and maybe treat myself to the salon for either a manicure and pedicure or just a new harcut =)

though i really wanna eat out naman on my birthday. to one of my fave restaurants..
either Italiannis, Almon Marina or Cafe Breton. or whatever na parang ganun =)

i'll be 21 na on feb1. seems so fast. before i was making my mom kulit pa to have a party on my 18th bday! haha! and now i'll be 21 na! and i can surely say that i've matured a lot naman =)
dapat lang! i'm turning 21 and soon to be in the working scene na. =)

oh well. hope my wednesday birthday will turn out great! (kahit gitna ng week. haha)

*edited (01-24-06 1:55am):
dumagdag na yung mga gusto ko gawen on my bday...
inuman with friends pa pala!
and this time with bene friends din =)
coz i miss hanging out with them na!
i can't remember na nga the last time we had our inuman eh!
prob talaga is budget..

haha pinapacomplicate ko bday ko lalo!
napaisip ako,, the simpler the better ba?
should i stick to dinner with jave lang? and not na the inuman thingy?

Rumor Has It...

2006-01-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

"I'm not going to say I can't live with you. Because I can live without you... I just don't want to."

that line was taken from the movie "Rumor Has It.."

Jave and I watched it awhile ago.
it wasn't a great movie. not that funny and kinda boring.
i wouldnt recommend that you watch it.
but.... I LOVED IT! hahaha. weird ko =P

i didnt love it coz it was funny.. and not coz it has a gerat script or shots (coz hindi)
i loved it coz i can relate to it =P (not the whole story naman ah hahaha,coz the story's kinda weird)
basta some parts lang, i wont make kwento na coz baka u plan to watch it pa.

I can relate to the quote at the start of this blog. I can live without him pero i don't want to =P
plus there's this other line in the movie eh...
it's something like..
"It's not about what you do... but who you do it with."

I so can relate to that. haha!
I crave for adventure kasi, i easily get bored just watching tv at home, and I hate staying at home the whole day talaga.
and lately ko lang narealize that even though there are times that sa house lang kami ni Jave -we have fun! =P

shuttle (diff. kinds of people and the liars)

2006-01-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

i've been riding the shuttle to makati from some time now (coz of my ojt nga).
and since the ride is so quiet and boring, napapansin ko yun mga tao dun.
there are different kinds of people there talaga..

the...
1.) the hip assumptionista
2.) the businessman with his laptop and formal posture
3.) the typical filipino
4.) the foreigner
5.) the not so foreigner (the probinsyana looking who speaks english so fluently with accent pa)
6.) the manyakiz
7.) the sosy
8.) the trying to be sosy
9.) the average worker
10.) and me.... trying the world out for the 1st time =P
____
u hear lots of beeps and rings in the shuttle..
its coz most of the time they're off to makati to meet up with someone.

its funny nga coz whenever they get a call, and they are asked where they are na.
they say...
"i'm in skyway na." -- and we're still in sucat pa lang ah!
or...
"5 mins i'm there na." -- but we still havent left mcdo sucat! LOL!

ewan ko ba why some Filipinos are like that! haha! (i know may natatamaan dyan) :P haha!
basta ako.. i tell them wherever I am na, para if ever ma-late ako, alam nila. coz nakakaasar ata magantay ah =P

*edited
i forgot to put here pa pala...
that when i ride the shuttle or the MRT or whatever public vehicle.. i get sad sometimes..
not for me... but for the man who stares blankly out the window, the woman who's teary eyed, and the driver who covers his sadness with a smile or a casual conversation to one of the pasaheros...
I can feel just by looking at them, that they're carrying the weight of the world on their shoulders. I feel their sadness and lonliness. .
how I wish that you could make their lives easier..
..but I can't.. because I've got my own problems to face.
all i can do.. is give them a warm smile, and hope that it's enough to brighten up their day, even a little. =)

goodnight.. goodmorning.. whatever!

2006-01-19T05:10:00.000+08:00

my whole week's a mess! haha!
I planned to go to work early everyday this week. coz naghahabol nga ko sa time.

but this week, i dont know what forces are keeping me from going to work on time. LOL!

it's either i dont wake up sa alarm...
or get lost somewhere! bwahaha!
or both- on the same day!

its 5am.. and i'm still up.
and i have to wake up early tomorrow to go to work.
oh well.. i dont think i can force myself out of bed early tomorrow morning (I mean later,2 hours from now) LOL!
i guess i'll be late -AGAIN!

i should sleep now. coz i need to pass by school pa tomorrow morning before i go to work (which i doubt il be able to do) haha!

goodnight! =) .....or goodmorning! ..whatever.. haha!

expectations

2006-01-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

hassle noh pag nagexpect ka tapos.. wala.

haay.. oh well.

hirap naman to convince yourself not to expect anything.

dun nagsstart mga prob ng mga tao halos eh -expectations.

pag di naaabot yung expectations- away. or kung di away malulungkot yung isa.

and the malas continues...

2006-01-16T18:07:00.000+08:00

haha!
yup! malas again today!

i woke up late. so di ko na naabutan yung shuttle sa bfhomes.
but ok lang, coz there's this shuttle service din naman in Mcdo Sucat.
BUT super strict ng shuttle nila, bawal magbaba sa MRT in buendia.
so bumaba ako near mandarin hotel pa.
and i decided to take a taxi to the MRT, coz lapit na nun, siguro mga 50pesos or less lang.
so i rode the taxi, told him sa MRT ng Buendia...

...Parang ang tagal and daming pasikotsikot..
i thought he was avoiding the traffic lang..
BUT NO.. haha! guess where the taxi took me....
LRT! hahaha. yes.. nabingi sha. hassle.

i took a look pa nga sa LRT, coz i was there na. and baka may way na LRT yung sasakyan papunta somewhere in Ortigas.
pero wala eh..
and super scary yung place. haha
hiwalay pa male and femaLe... so it must be really scary to ride dun lalo na if youre a girl.

di ko na nakayanan...
i took a taxi again.. pero now, i made sure he understood me—na sa MRT.

but then.... TRAFFIC! sobra.
the fare:100 pesos!
plus yung fare pa kanina. plus yung shuttle pa.
so... wala na ko money for LUNCH :(

oh well. goodluck to me! haha! sana di ako mahimatay or something.:)

new background =P

2006-01-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

changed my background here in my blogspot.
the previous one seemed so gloomy eh. parang nakakasad lalo.
so i changed it to the white version of it! =)
better na! =)

edited*

haha changed it again. di ko ma make up mind ko! bwahahaha! =P
pero di pa rin gloomy =)

friday the 13th (malas nga) haha!

2006-01-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

there were a lot of kamalasans that happened
but for some reason, even if malas, today was fun! =)

want me to enumerate ng kamalasans?

1. when i was on the MRT on the way to work, nabitawan ko yung pole, and i nearly fell, buti na lang someone caught my fall.

2. Anton and I were at this yosi place in Galleria, I didnt realize that I was on the edge of the bench na, and I leaned back a little.. and.. yep.. u guessed it.. I fell! haha! kakahiya!

3. On our way back to the south, we stopped at this kwekwek and Balut place in Ayala MRT (Balut Eggspress). We were standing lang there, eating our kwekwek, tapos tinalsikan ako ni kuya"kwekwek" ng sweet and sour sauce!!! napunta sa hair ko!
one good thing about that incident was that i got 5pcs. of free kwekwek!
bad thing was they put suka in it! and i hate suka!
so i gave it to Anton instead =)

ocge, 3 lang yung malas.. but.. that's too much in one day pa rin!
i actually had fun today...and i dont know why!
pero super tiring yung day!
it's a friday night and i didnt go out! hahahaha! good thing the internet's back! =P

*edited: and nga pala, i just heard from a friend that full moon din tonyt!

ranting...again.

2006-01-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

my internet connection's down. hassle nga eh. it seems that the destiny cable guy cut our lines by mistake while cutting our neighbors cable connection. hassle talaga.

i'm at work now. Good thing this site isnt blocked! hahaha! sana pagkauwi ko ok na connection namin at home. haaay.

hassle din sa school. they told us that we have to finish 180 hours sa ojt by jan20!
and naka 80 pa lang ata ako!
100 hours in a week? ha! i doubt that's possible!
plus our thesis is due on the 2nd week of feb na!
and i still have to attend my classes!
yep.... it sucks!

sorry for my rantings =P

My Fairytale Dream

2006-01-09T23:34:00.000+08:00

In my own fairytale dream,
you are the sword that slays the dragon..
the potion that vanquishes the witch..
And the kiss that awakens the Princess.

Without you..
This fairytale dream i have wouldn't be a dream at all,
but a never ending nightmare.
Thanks for the best fairytale a Princess could ever ask for! =P

i made that for my Jave =P
while i was riding the shuttle on the way home from work.

first day work day-again

2006-01-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

it was my first time this year to go to work.
first time this year to commute na malayo.
haha!
grabe, i was like commuting for the 1st time ulit =P para akong lost and scared. haha!

the night before, i couldnt sleep.
i dont know if it's coz of my "excitement" or "anxiousness" of my 1st day to work "again"
OR just coz of the bitin beer i had earlier that night.
-slept around 2am, woke up 3am, and couldnt go back to sleep after that, around 6am pala nakatulog na ko then woke up 7am.
Haha! lack of sleep talaga!

at work, there werent much to do daw coz they were getting ready na for their trip to Bora.
yep... BORA! hahahaha. kaingget. =P
they'll leave tomorrow na and be back friday.
nicole left some stuff for me to do while they're gone =P

cool! =P
i think this is actually my first blog about work. haha!
before kasi i blogged about work in my journal (as in a written journal, a requirement for school kasi) but lately i'm so tamad na to write there.

new year 2006 =P

2006-01-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

*click title for more newyear pix =P

as usual.. vanity pic with bea =P

tito bulit a.k.a papa bu =P

tito boy turned mulim! =P

both kulit titos wearing orange! haha! -pinagusapan? hmmm?

thumbs up from martz! =P

pats: "say hello to my little friend" (with a mexican accent pa!, mexican nga ba?)

ching, kat, and me with afro =P

cheers! =P we got our cousin to drink after 4 years of stopping!
haha! BI cousins! LOL!

ballesca cousins pic! =P with izel (our cousins bebe) =P

new year was fun!
too bad there's no sosy drinks like what we had in xmas.
we drank gin grapes lang! hahaha! cheap! =P
we were supposed to go to embassy or somewhere in makati after 12mn.
but we didnt have a ride pauwi (coz marts and pats are gonna sleep over somewhere)..
so we didnt go na. we stayed lang. but around 3am, ching's friends came over, and we tagged along sa kanila to innercircle and after went to PORCH!=P and tried the BOYBASTOS! =P
it wasnt actually bastos at all. haha! overated drink! =P
they said one glass and ur down. but nope =P still standing! =)

my new year could be better, but it was still fun! =P

OC hits!

2006-01-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

OC as in Obssessive Compulsive not Orange County and that TV series. Haha! =P

My internet connection was down awhile ago...
so....

to kill time...

i cleaned my CR! LOL! hahaha!
scrubbed the tiles, arranged my kikay stuff, and threw away things that i didn't need na.

and not only did i clean my CR but also my side table! haha! (if you've been to my room na, you know how dirty and magulo ng side table is) haha! =P

but now its CLEAN! =P yey!

WRU bby? hehe =P

2006-01-05T16:39:00.000+08:00

woke up late today, around 3:30pm..
there were no texts or ym msgs from jave.
normally kasi 2pm pa lang or earlier he msgs me, or arrives here lang at home.
but late na.. wala pa..

and naisip ko..
it's great that after nearly 4 years of our relationship, i still miss him, and i still long for him =P

havent talked to him since he left my house last night.
i know i know, kagabi lang naman pala! haha! but still... i miss him already =P haha!
and i'm worried din =P LOL!

it's 4:45pm and he's still not here...
oh wait.. i think i hear him na...
....or maybe not.. oh well.

ribbons, wrappers and abubots =P

2006-01-05T00:40:00.000+08:00

i was wrapping presents kanina. with ribbons and all those ka-ekekan pa. haha!
my bed was covered with ribbons, wrappers, and abubots.

i bought kasi xmas presents for my half bro and sisters eh! =P
and i'm excited na to give it to them! =P
i wanna see the look on their faces sana. but i don't think i will coz they live so far pa (baras,rizal), so i might meet up with my dad na lang somewhere and sa kanya ko na lang bigay.

too bad i didnt have enough money to buy a present for my dad. :(
i don't think he'll mind coz i have presents naman for the lil kids eh. =P
and i can save up na lang and buy him a present on jan10 (his bday)
odba? one gift na lang for xmas and bday. haha!

i was touched nga coz my dad uses my gift for him last year (a clutchbag).
now, i can't think of anything to give him! hirap! ahaha. pag guy talaga hirap bigyan ng gift.
dibale, i still have naman til jan10 =P

now nga the gifts i wrapped kanina are in a baby blue cutsie plastic bag. nakaready lang =P
haha! excited eh! LOL!

year 2005.-recap

2006-01-02T12:44:00.000+08:00

this is my first post this year =P

so i guess this better be a recap of what happened last year. :)

lets start with the unfortunate events:
1.) repeated my thesis lotsa times (til now di parin tapos)
2.) love problems (i dont wanna elaborate on that! haha!)-(they say that 2005 is a bad year for relationships.hmm.. kinda.)
*well, i dont remmeber na what happened to me pa. basta these two yung major prob sa year 2005.
pahabol..
3.) di natuloy ng bora (di pa ko nakakapunta. boohoo)
4.) a really really close friend and I?- not in good terms.

so....

the good things?
1.) i've matured =P
2.) i've realized a lot of things about me =P
3.) gotten back together with jave! ♥♥♥ (plus our relationship got better) ♥♥♥
4.) i got to hang out with my dad madalas.
5.) i met my lil sister (yep! for the first time..and she's 3!)
6.) i got to see my half sister and brother-and they're big na! before babies pa!
7.) i've commuted! (and i see that as a good thing, coz i now know how to go to places-alone) =P
**basta lots pa!

all in all.. the year was ok. dami probs but i learned from it naman! =P
hope this year will be great! =P
and siguro naman this year,tuloy na talaga bora! =P

clueless about confessions.

2005-12-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

woke up sa text ni jave : "baby, favor, dress up na, il fetch u na, alis tayo."

so i got up, showered, dressed up.
and ayun, jave was here na. i didnt even had time to eat lunch.

we first went to his house to fetch his mom and siblings. and we went to st. james to confess..
yes... CONFESS.

i was nervous nga coz last time i confessed was way back in grade school pa ata. (except those retreat thingys), and i never tried na sa church mag confess (with the cubicle/booth or whatever you call it ba). If u know our family, you'll know that we're not the religious type. but yes, we believe in God. and I believe that i am a good person.

actually, i've "kinda" tried confessing sa confessional booth before..with my dad..when i was a kid.
my dad confessed first, and ako sunod nya.
he was done na and doing his penance, so ako na. i went in. started confessing. and.... no answer.. no reply from the priest. i even repeated it.. but still.. nothing.. nada.. silence.
so i left na lang. my dad even asked me after what my penance was. and.... i lied (another sin right there in front of the church's altar), i told him 1 our father, 1 hail mary, 1 glory be. but of course it wasnt true.. tsk tsk..

so after that i got traumatized from the confessional booth. i hated doing confession there. i prefer the more personal kind. where harap harapan talaga yung confession sa priest (like in retreats, etc.)

so ayun, kanina, i kept on bugging jave.. "baby, ano sasanihin ko?", "pano ko sstart?", "how do i know kung may pari dun?".. blah blah blah.. haha! =P

anyway, it was my turn to confess. i entered the booth. kneeled. and ayun!.. i heard the priest na! "In the name of the father and of the son....." and so i said my sins. and heard what the priest has to say.
my penance: act of contrition, 1 our father, 1 hail mary, 1 glory be.

u know the prob?? - I dont know how to pray the act of contrition! haha!

even asked jave's mom, but di ko talaga alam.

so i prayed my own personal prayer na lang. =P

*additional info for the day: 1 meal of the day ko was 7pm! ..baka nga 1st and only haha! =P

[scrubs] - the best! =P

2005-12-30T02:04:00.000+08:00

it's 2am. and i'm still up, but nothing to do na. i've checked every site i usually visit and there's no one online sa ym...

so what am i still doing up? (besides the fact that i woke up at 3:30pm kanina)...

it's coz i'm waiting for SCRUBS!

i forgot to watch kanina eh. so i'm waiting for the replay in star world.

parang addicted na ko dun noh? haha! watch kasi and you'll know why =P

lalo na if u love sarcastic jokes =P haha! the best! =P

trip pics on xmas eve

2005-12-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

gay!

so gay..

lamay?

ano nangyari k martz?=P

arctic melon!

black label naman?

lakas ni lola!

gayness!

absolut vanilla (i took this pic) ♥♥♥

baby's boobies! =P

beer is so oldskul.

2005-12-28T16:07:00.000+08:00

went to porch last night with jave's brothers and cousin.

actually we went to cable car first. but they were asking for id's coz 18 above lang pwede mag drink. but jave's cousin and brother are minors lang eh. so we left. and laughtrip pa coz they were asking for our id's pa (jave and I), weird. i'm 20 and he's 21. haha! do we look like minors? haha!

as usual porch again.

since i have money naman that night, i decided NOT to drink beer, but absolut kurant. haha!

1 beer, 6 kurants, 3 tequilas, 2 minerals, and one calamares later....

... i think i've spent too much! hahaha! LOL!

but i had fun! =P
so worth it naman..... i think =P haha!
plus i got like 4 stirrers from my drink! ahhaha may nakalagay pang "absolut"-nice!

xmas '05 phone pics

2005-12-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

xmas korean style. LOL!

jave santa! =P

what we drank.

lola drank too!

some fun/weird facts about me

2005-12-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

1.) I think i'm an Obssessive Compulsive person, or close to being one (but my room/stuff shows otherwise).
2.) I love looking at fireworks (yung lights lang, but i get tired looking at it in a minute or so.
3.) I often sing "Love Me For A Reason" in the shower, i dunno why.
4.) For me, waking up at 11am is too early.
5.) And i only sleep before 3am when m not feeling well.
6.) I can't straight a glass of water or any kind of drink. Sip lang.
7.) So i can't down any tablets or capsules, except maybe those super tiny ones.
8.) I don't know how to ride the bike, lalo na to drive a car (but i would love to learn).
9.) I always wish i could teleport! Haha!
10.) I was addicted to coke (the drink ah), but now di na mashado.
11.) I imagine dirt floating in water when i drink it, thats why i prefer drinking juice instead.
12.) I don't eat lechon, and i hate Mang Tomas.
13.) I hate suka! (the sawsawan).
14.) I'm allergic to chocolates! (not really allergic, but my throat itches sobra).
15.) When i was a kid, i used to make papak salt! yep.. weird!
16.) I save the best for last.

xmas! pics, soon to come

2005-12-26T02:51:00.000+08:00

xmas at my lolo's place was fun! =P

we started drinking around 11pm na ata. but ok lang. fun pa din!
tequila was a no show, but there was absolut vanilla and arctic melon naman! -better! =P

we (bea, ching and I) were the ones who distributed the gifts!
only got 3 gifts.. haha! damn! i'm getting old! no more bags full of gifts like when i was a kid pa!

no more drinks.. actually before the gift giving pa!
but still had the time of my life! =P

bryan (aisa's bf) played the guitar for us pala later that night. as in whatever we requested! hahah aliw! natapos na kami 4am!

excited for xmas! =P

2005-12-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

an hour and 30 mins to go before we go to our lolo's house for the family's xmas party! =P
yeah so what, i'm excited! like a kid excited for the gifts he'll receive for xmas!

and you know what am i excited about?
-drinking with my cousins tequila style =P
-and my outfit! hahaha LOL!
what il be wearing?: a pink mini skirt na pleated (dunno what its called eh sorry), a sexy white spag, and a pink cutsie polo.
-and pictures! (to be posted in my blog)

22mins to go before i hit the shower =P
right now, i'm just killing time.

2 days til xmas =P

2005-12-23T04:22:00.000+08:00

was busy helping my mom with the "giftwrapping" the whole night.
i didn't do the giftwrapping (coz i suck at it), rather i made the envelopes for the money (with the help of my brother and cousin), and handed the cards, stickers, paperbags, etc.
we ended up at 2am! =P

there were xmas balloons pa, stickers, ribbons, lootbags and a lot of other xmas goodies pa!
naaliw ako, so i kinda "designed" the xmas paperbag of my gift to jave! haha!

after our xmas giftwrapping session trip...
i did this:

hmm. i dunno.. looks kinda weird. =P haha!

*ay nga pala. i was so excited mag xmas that i tried on my xmas outfit na! wahahaha!
tinignan ko lang kung bagay. and kung ano kulang =P

unwritten rules of friendster "daw"

2005-12-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

1. To the people who does have more
than 500
friend's, are you serious? Nobody in this
universe
has that many friends...you're stupid. Go
kill
yourself.

2. If you're ugly stop acting like you don't
know it.
The captions under you picture that
says "top
model pose" doesn't convince anybody.
at least
you can work on your personality

3. Don't ever post pictures and say "omg
im so
ugly" because if you were, you wouldn't
post
them.
please put away the rod and reel cause
your just
fishin for compliments.

4. Nobody cares about threats over the
internet.
Don't try to act hard with the
keyboard...that's so
sad. unless you actually physically beat
someone
with the keyboard. then thats ironically
hilarious.

5. If all your pictures look the same...don't
post
them all! Please put some variety in your
pics.
Nobody wants to see your face 8 different
ways. I
don't care if its inverted, black and white,
or faded
out. a face is a face is a face

6. Who really gives a rats ass if I don't
accept you
as a friend...MOVE ON. Don't send me
another
request or message asking "what's up?" I
don't
want you as a friend or I just don't care,
that's
what's up!

7. LITTLE 10, 11, 12, years old who have
friendster and LOOK LIKE SLUTS, go
somewhere
else because NOBODY wants you here
except
pedophiles, and is that what you want. to
be
raped? no you don't so RUN RUN FAST!!

8. No one is really going to die in 6 days
or have
bad relationships for 5 years if they don't
pass or
post
your
bulletin on. so stop saying that!

9. If you have decided to read this, You
are a true
Friendster Friend. Real friends read their
bulletins.

10. It serves to eliminate people who are
desperately trying to add "friends" like it's
a
popularity contest in high school. Good
riddance!

**i agree to everything except for the 1st one...
coz i do have more than 500 friends in friendster. and guess what? i know them all personally =P
**but i'm "kinda" guilty with the same poses na pics hahaha! but who cares? =P

my fave photo of us (edited)*

2005-12-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

remember my fave photo of us (jave and I)? =P
haha! i kinda edited it a lil..
and here it is..

*photoshopped

*original pic

i dunno.. better? or not?

my half brother and sisters!

2005-12-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

my dad texted me last friday, coz they were in galleria! i was at work (also in galleria), so i met with them! i didn't want to leave nga but i had stuff to do pa sa ofc. awww. tagal ko na sila di nakita! years! last time i saw alliana she was in preschool pa, now she's in grade3! last time i saw lian he was this cute lil thing who wrestles me every morning! ahahhaha! now he's big na din!
and allison.... this was the 1st time i saw her.. she's such a cutie!
i wish i spent more time with them :(

me and my half bro and sisters =P

allison..my half sister na now ko lang nakita. and she's 3 na!

allison with dad

bene friends (soky's bday)

2005-12-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

last friday, jave and I went to wasabi for soky's bday! =P
there were free drinks til 12mn. though i only got to drink 1 free drink hahaha! and even if the beer was like a hundred pesos. it was ok. coz i had fun! my HS friends were there. Chi, Bubbles, Allane, Soky, Mey, and to others i forgot to mention (sorry) hahaha!
i really missed you guys! =P

that night was different for all of us, some of us are working na, some are graduating. we've all matured. but our "bene ways", it'll never fade. we still danced like noones watching, laughed our lungs out,and just be crazy and beautiful! =P

Luv u guys! ♥♥♥

we should hang out again sometime. ♥

haha yeah! crazy drunkards! =P

my fave photo of us!

2005-12-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

that was shot at the rooftop of home depot in the fort =P

turning into a ps2 geek!

2005-12-15T14:46:00.000+08:00

haha! i havent been using my pc na for like a week ata. or almost a week!
it's not "sira" or anything. i'm too lazy to turn it on lang..
so what have i been doing instead?
playing the ps2 ahahhaha NFS-Most Wanted! LOL!
i'm turning into a ps2 geek na LOL! hhahaha!

napupuyat ako because of it! hahahaha!

he loves me, and i love him ♥

2005-12-11T14:41:00.000+08:00

edited the pic of the rose petals that jave did as a surprise for me before

♥♥♥

i hate it when.. (myspace, friendster, etc.)

2005-12-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

no offense ah. wala lang to. opnion lang.

1) i hate it when girls refer to themselves as "bitches" hehehe LOL!.

example: ( in some girl's myspace account)
"i'm the sexiest bitch ever"

hahaha LOL!

no offense ha. =P

wala lang. ang panget kasi tignan eh. =P

2) chain mails!
i swear kairita! hahahah.
yung mga quizzes and surveys love ko. but the chain messages?! haaay.

haha this is lafftrip. alanis made this:

"I want to thank all of you who have taken the
time and trouble to send me your damn
chain letters over the past few years. Yes,
thank you, thank you, thank you from the
bottom of what's left of my heart for making
me feel safe, secure, blessed, and wealthy.
Because of your concern...I no longer can
drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet
stains.

I no longer drink Pepsi or DR Pepper since
the people who make these products are
atheists who refuse to put "Under God" on
their cans.

I no longer drink anything out of a can
because I will get sick from the rat feces and
urine.

I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave
because it causes cancer.

I no longer check the coin return on pay
phones because I could be pricked with a
needle infected with AIDS.

I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants
even though I smell like a water buffalo on a
hot day.

I no longer use margarine because it's one
molecule away from being plastic.

I no longer go to shopping malls because
someone will drug me with a perfume
sample and rob me.

I no longer receive packages from UPS or
FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in
disguise.

I no longer answer the phone because
someone will ask me to dial a stupid number
for which I will get the phone bill from hell
with calls to Jamaica, Uganda, Singapore,
and Uzbekistan.

I no longer eat KFC because their chickens
are actually horrible mutant freaks with no
eyes or feathers.

I no longer date the opposite sex because
they will take my kidneys and leave me taking
a nap in a bathtub full of ice.

I no longer buy expensive cookies from
Neiman Marcus since I now have their
recipe.

I no longer worry about my soul because I
have 363,214 angels looking out for me and
St. Theresa's novena has granted my every
wish.

Thanks to you, I have learned that God only
answers my prayers if I forward an email to
seven of my friends and make a wish within
five minutes. (Geez, the BIBLE did not
mention it works that way!)

I no longer have any savings because I gave
it to a sick girl who is about to die in the
hospital (for the 1,387,258th time).

I no longer have any money at all, but that will
change once I receive the $15,000 that
Microsoft and AOL are sending me for
participating in their special e-mail program.

Yes, I want to thank all of you soooooooo
much for looking out for me!

I will now return the favor.

If you don't send this to at least 1200
people in the next 60 seconds, a large bird
with diarrhea will crap on your head at 5:00
PM this afternoon and the fleas of a thousand
camels will infest your armpits. I know this
will occur because it actually happened to a
friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of a
friend of a friend of a friend of my next door
neighbor's ex-mother-in-law's 8th husband's
2nd cousin's 3rd husband's ex-wife's
mother's beautician!"

3) of course di mawawala yung mga nagprepretend to be someone they're not. sino naman may gusto nun dba? =P

4) when someone sends u a message that he's a photographer and would like to take pictures of u. LOL!

example:
want to be a part or full time
model? As a freelance
photographer/talent coordinator, Im also
preparing for future projects for tv tapings,
magazine pictorials, print ads and so on.

If you want part-time jobs with extra income/etc.,
like ushering, and so on, you can contact me.

Btw, do you know someone interested to pose for
a men's magazine (ex. FHM, Pump,
ToyzForTheBoyz)?

What's your email where we can send a form and
some info. Whats your contact number,
cell/landline?

-scary eh. u wouldnt know if its true or not. =P
-even if totoo. scary pa din!
-just open, read then delete LOL!

why'd u pick your course? =P

2005-12-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

at the pr office awhile ago. i was asked why i chose masscom as my course. and was asked to write anything about my course.

u know why i picked my course? beacause i didnt know what to take up. as in no idea. but since in bene i was assigned in liacom, a course related to the arts would probably suite me more. so i chose masscom coz it was the most broad course in arts eh (i think.) hehe.

so what did i write about my course?:

masscom is fun. i get to do what i love to do. none of those 9-5 office paperwork kinda job. (but yeah mas torture yung working hours). plus ever heard of the idea that the media shapes our culture? sounds fun and challenging right? =P

i couldnt remember my exact words. but its something like that.
i just wanted to share that lang.

so, how bout u? why'd u pick your course? =P

real world advice.

2005-12-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

Twenty-somethings who are trying to figure out how to succeed in the "real world" could learn a great deal from an article published on The Wall Street Journal's executive career site, CareerJournal.com. The piece, which also is a worthwhile read for leaders who are mentoring younger team members, lists 10 tips about effective workplace conduct. Here are a few:

1. Shut up and listen. This is how the article's author, Karen Woodward, says she learned the most important lessons in her previous career as a film-industry assistant.

2. Admit your mistakes. "Covering for them rarely works," Woodward writes. "Just say, 'I screwed up,' don't make excuses, and take steps to fix it."

3. Don't think too highly of yourself. "I can't tell you how annoying 20-somethings (men and women) are who, because they are young and cute and went to a good college, think that they are smarter than anyone else," Woodward says.

4. Choose the right clothes. This doesn't mean young professionals need to look stuffy or overly conservative. "But please remember that you are not in college, and you are not at a bar," she adds.

5. Connect with your peers. "These are the people you will be moving up the ladder with, and it's best to have them on your side to begin with," Woodward writes. "I've seen the people who ... went out of their way to hang out with the upper-level management, and they have all gone nowhere."

*got this from ate mish. thnx =P

confessions of a parent

2005-09-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

CONFESSIONS OF A PARENT

Why is life so complicated? Specially mine!

I had a good life with minimal complaints about anything. I grew up being spoiled by my dad and practically got what I wanted. Life for me at that time was practically heaven! I could say that I was not a good person at that time basing on everybody’s standards but I thought I was just doing alright. You could say that I didn’t do harm to anybody at that time except to my parents for disobeying them. I was a simple pretty girl who fell prey to love and its consequences which made my parents miserable. Life for me at that time was just easy.

Now that I am a parent of teenage kids, life has changed for me! I can not understand why it has to change! Well I guess it seems that being a parent means being responsible for your children. Do you think that is right? When I was young I never thought or felt that my parents were responsible for me and it seems that was the reason it made things easier for me. They would just scold me and nag me about things they don’t want me to do but they would never talk to me!

Now I ask you, what should parents do to make teenage life like yours be easy?

FS: ipod mini and ps2

2005-09-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

guys im selling a sony ps2 model SCPH-50001, the
whole set.

-this was already modified to play pirated games
and has served us faithfully coz it never hangs.
-it comes complete with an online pack.
-plus 10 free pirated games :P
-im selling it for 10k negotiable.

-call or text 09165508496.
-or msg me here! :P

im also selling my ipod mini. 6 gigs, blue, comes with
the condom, and is in perfect condition. txt me ur
offers nlng thnx 09165508496

trying it out!

2005-09-20T09:46:00.000+08:00

hahahahha! i was bored! and i mean - really bored! hahhaa...
naaliw ako, even if m not THAT good at it -kakaaliw! hahahahhaa.
i wanna learn tuloy! hahahhahahhaaha

i've waited for this for TOO long...

2005-09-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

MCDO MILKSHAKE!!!

hahahahha..

baby kasi eh, tagal mo nang promise yun eh.. hahahaha

Again? Again?

next time with large fries na! :P

What do you prefer?
	San Mig Light
	Pale Pilsen
	Strong Ice